| "Keep smiling...Keep shining...Knowing you can always count on me for sure...That's what friends are for....For good times and bad times...I'll be on your side forever more...That's what friends are for" 
n yes, tra, my best day in 2006 was the carnival nite...i miss your XL winnie the pooh (which i hope isnt on its way to Phillipines) n i miss every bit of the fun we had there.... |
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| 樹猶如此 is easily the most beautiful yet tragic short story I've ever read. The story is so depressing. The grief at a beloved one's death hits again and the pain is unbearable. But it's good to be reminded that shit happens and it happens to like anyone. Thanks Jeanne for recommending it to me when she's busy working on her dissertation. 白先勇 is such a talented writer n everything he writes is full of perceptive insights into love and life. It's a shame that he doesn't have the recognition he deserves in china just because he's openly gay. Anyways, for my friends who can read Chinese, get the book. It's really good. Here's some extracts of the 20-page story:
………沒料到才是幾天工夫，一棵六七十尺的大樹，如遭天火雷擊，驟然間通體枝焦而亡。那些針葉，一觸便紛紛斷落，如此孤標傲世風華正茂的常青樹，數日之間完全壞死………. 從此，我後院的兩側，便出現了一道缺口。柏樹無故枯亡，使我鬱鬱不樂了好些時日，心中總感到不樣，似乎有什麼奇禍即將降臨一般。沒有多久，王國樣便生病了。………
………我在車中反光鏡里，瞥見他孤立在大門前的身影，他的頭發本來就有少年白，兩年多來，百病相纏，競變得滿頭蕭蕭，在暮色中，分外怵目。開上高速公路後，突然一陣無法抵擋的傷痛，襲擊過來，我將車子拉到公路一旁，伏在方向盤上，不禁失聲大慟。我哀痛王國祥如此勇敢堅忍，如此努力抵抗病魔咄咄相逼，最後仍然被折磨得行銷骨立。而我自己亦盡了所有得力量，去回護他的病體，卻眼看著他的生命亦一點一滴耗盡，終至一籌莫展。我一向相信人定勝天，常常逆數而行，然而人力畢竟不敵天命，人生大限，無人能破。………
………春日負喧，我坐在園中靠椅上，品茗閱報，有百花相伴，暫且貪享人間瞬息繁華。美中不足的是，抬眼望，總看見園中西隅，剩下的那兩棵義大利柏樹中間，露出一塊楞楞的空白來，缺口當中，映著湛湛青空，悠悠白雲，那是一道女媧煉石也無法彌補的天裂。
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i miss you.
have been thinking abt u a lot these days. tried hard to imagine what i'd be like if i hadnt met u. guess i wouldnt feel as lonely and tired now. it still hurts to think abt the gd times we had. i've never reli moved on.
whenever i am in despair, knowing u'r always watching over me, i hold on n most of the time, things get better. ur love gives me strength i guess. |
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| 如真的需要走 你要教我獨行
曾每天給我呵護 愿來世奉還
想紀錄多一次 眼角眉梢暗示
是時候 也許不必細說 已心知
遺傳自你的生活 和珍惜的某些
時空中交錯多少感覺 似抱住你暖一些
原來自你消失后 才懂珍惜這些
陽光今天這么燦爛 多么想你
遺傳自你的喜好 藍灰色的汽車
黃昏開始駕駛的感覺 挂念你多一些
然后樹老 身體老 情從來沒有老
可惜這個城市里 從今找不到你
I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU |
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| Happy Anniversary, KPMG
I guess i'd give another year n see whether things are gonna work out.... thanks for always being there for me, my very beloved ones, u know who u are |
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